Friday, January 11, 2013

Stressful , Joyful and Sadness too

So this week , my situation is really stressful due to many many things ... I got lectured yesterday morning by my dad .. I have been sleeping for like less than 4 hours most of the time and .. I have been doing a lot of responsible and important jobs like for example Librarian meeting , Co curricular meetings and so much more . All this .. in one week . I'm so moody , stressful , impatient , and sometimes really really sad because i got scolded for no reason .. Lectured because I didn't finish my homework on the second week of school ... I am not a robot alright ? I need some rest .. I mean i have been waking up for like around 3 am in the morning everyday just to finish up my homework till 6 am .. and at that time .. I have to like rush to school . Is not like Seksyen 3 anymore.. Is so far away from home. Please ... you must understand what I am going through for every single day ! At least appreciate what I have done ! I manage to finish half of my work still rite ? .... I'm afraid not cause .. is a blog ..what you expect . Anyway , I sacrifice my time so much on studying , assignments, homework that i forgot to do house work . And that is where i got my second lectured from my parents yesterday .  Speechless ... I don't blame them .. i don't blame anyone . Its the way of life . For those who I actually did show my temper or somehow .. didn't listen to whatever you ask me to do ? I'm really really sorry .. I have been forgiving so many people for the pass few days ... - Drop to my knees - Am I really going to go through like this for like a year ? or maybe many years to come ? I don't know ... I just need someone to comfort me .. or just ask for God's help .. I just can't do this all the time.I'm sorry everyone .. I really am ..Forgive for another person too which I talk nonsense i guess .. I dunno .. a small message below 

 I really am sorry if I read your blog and immediately asked like what happen ? Are you alright ? and so on .. I was actually trying to help but maybe that help meaning can't be translated in the Facebook chat ( I understand ) and I hope you understand . But it was my fault too for not seeing the below post you wrote "Don't comfort me and so on " . So , i hope you are not classifying me as a stalker or something else alright ? Again .. I'm really really sorry . And before that ? I ask a silly question too .. " do you call me ? " I guess i'm thinking too much as what you said earlier before ..sorry... don't get mad of me alright ? I stop thinking too much already ..I won't want to disturb you no more if you think that I am disturbing this day's .. 


Nothing much i can say already because .. I myself have so much guiltiness  

Felt like jumping off the cliff anytime soon .. :/
I miss all the good times .. regretting for everything i haven't done at the pass 

But there is also times where i have a chance to smile . I went for badminton on Thursday at SS15 Badminton Hall . Is quite near to Inti college and even nearer to Asia Cafe .Mind you .. Asia Cafe food is really expensive.Well , first day of badminton and everyone thinks i am really really  entertaining i guess , haha .. I did a lot of shouting which is like "Wooo !!" "Nooooo!" and that make them all laugh until they drop to the floor and I however was like running around in circle for no reason xD I can't help it ! The shuttlecock is about to hit the ground you know ! I have to dive myself in just to prevent it from touching the ground ! and in the mean time .. i make all those noises xD Really entertaining huh ? Last match i make those HOO HAA HOO !! and the whole hall turns from noisy to silents xD You know why i shout ? Because they all .. never ever give chance to me and always smash the ball until i got this feeling of payback time and my team mate is like not helping at all ! Always kept saying ... "Okay , this time serious " seriously !!!?? xD 8 points away every time !!! Hai yo ... It was good fun though , hahaha .

When back home , on Facebook and this is what they post 



Shannon is the most entertaining badminton player I have ever seen

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"fall to the ground" "drop theirs rackets" unbelievable .. Going back to badminton again next week Thursday again :)

I went in Green house too at this school :) Next week is sports practice and along side with co curricular activities . Really stressful ? Hopefully not .. I'm really praying for that . Heard one of my friends too ? they are having a meeting MPPU ( Majlis Perwakilan Pra Universiti )  last Tuesday i guess ..planning for all of us to have a trip to either Cambodia or Thailand  around Jun . That would be really good fun but the main reason we are going there is too help the kids which are below rural poverty . I prefer helping the society rather than going for a fun trip because it brings so much more meaningful indeed . I am willing to go and I hope it works cause most of the time it fails ..haih .. My cousin went there with a group of Christian society to help them too . But instead they went to Vietnam , Ours is either Cambodia or Thailand . Okay so ...that's it for this week and hope you all stay fine alright ? God Bless You 







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